I forgot I had this

so here I am, procrastinating

I love it because in this space (Procrasti-Nation) I come up with some of my favorite ideas (for the things I'm not working on). last night I was up late putting together this lego-adjacent mini television set while watching old RHOA. I was in the zone, locked in u know, and was wearing this sweater from Monkeypaw (photo below by Kate)

and then this thought popped into my head and I started to write it in an instagram caption but sometimes your caption is tooooo lonnnnng. then I remembered that I have this. which is wonderful cause boy do I need to YAP:

my 1 am thoughts: ok i just realized that NOPE (jordan peele) could be about how cinema actually has ushered about the End of Fiction. that’s why the real housewives feels so actual even though we’re completely aware of its manufacture. and then, when Housewives become too aware of (and complicit in, smh) their own manufacture, it crosses over into the realm of actual Fiction, which divorces it from our interests, because we know the story.

somehow we, again, due to cinema’s (/tv’s— but better to just call it all cinema because i think they all come from the same thing and tend towards the same goal) due to cinema’s specific power of imposing a sustained state of passive nonduality (we become the film’s inner voice. we write the emotion of the characters onto actors faces. we decide what a music cue means — we decide if that read was ironic. we decide what the film means and then a collective definition endures. and we do it in multiple formats and languages, and the medium is constantly updating and innovating and reimagining itself, and we’re constantly translating new meanings based on our own life experiences, and we ALL have different lexicons for the same things?) WHAT did that at this global scale before cinema? (maybe just religion. idk, but please comment below if you think of something else.)

due to that, we have so thoroughly integrated cinema (tv, ads, movies) into our personalities (even if we don’t realize it) that we recreate it in our reality (repeating jokes, mimicking a character’s tonal specificities, wearing something because the style reminds you of that guy on that show) and that reverberates in our circles and of course someone sees it and says “hey that would be cool in a movie” and references an IRL reference that came somehow from a 1950s lost nigerian film like???

cinema has therefore allowed for humanity to desire something past what we already know which is why “life feels like a movie lately” and the collapse of empire and hyper-nationalism and the contempt that it breeds

— with NOPE — the impossible things are not the thing to overcome— the thing to overcome is “how do we get the perfect shot” (the real “impossible” feat) — there’s not a questioning of the impossible because there’s no such thing as impossible in a world where cinema has done what it’s done to our imaginations! very fun! 🎦

ok, back to present tense: relatedly — that’s why we should have very little patience for those who speak of the impossibility of future ideals due to the cyclical nature of past lives. no shade, but you have to exercise your imagination just like you do any other precious part of you. we’ve literally created art forms (cinema!!!!!) to catapult our imagining faculties to the next level. no disrespect but I truly do not gaf what terrible choices people made when they didn’t even have the internet. what does that have to do with me??? we have all the information about the choices that were made readily available to us!!! we can choose to imagine something different!!!!! I digress.

I’m an anti-nationalist except for when it comes to Procrasti-Nation.

my next post will be on my other theory of cinema (other than “ads and tv are cinema, youtube is cinema, vine was cinema” and “there is a direct line from the beginning of the cinematic arts to the end of “truth” and “reality”): Future Nostalgia. but i’m a smooth fifteen pages behind where i’d like to be today at this time, so for now we go into the silence…………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………..………………………………………………………………………………………..………………………………………………………………………………………..………………………………………………………………………………………..………………………………………………………………………………………..………………………………………………………………………………………..………………………………………………………………………………………..………………………………………………………………………………………..………………………………………………………………………………………..………………………